I'm really terrified about what is going to happen when we go to war.

What happened in DC, Pennsylvania, and New York was very well planned and executed. It is obvious that this was going to start a war. That is what whoever did this intended to happen. When the war starts that person will be ready, and more harm will come the people in America, our soldiers, and the civilians of whatever country we are fighting in.

I just got home from holding a candle on Santa Monica Blvd. I was standing alone on a corner between a porno book store and a gay bay holding a candle.

Originally I was not going to do that. Because really, what does holding a candle do? I believe in doing things that actually make a difference to the people effected. Like donating money, clothes, time, or blood. Holding a candle will not ease the pain of a family that is missing a Mother or someone who is in a hospital with burns all over their body.

But as I was driving home and I saw all the people holding the candles and it did give me a sense of hope. Telling me that we are all in this together. It got me close to crying again.

First thing I did when I got home was to go out and hold a candle.

And when I did it I actually did feel better. It felt good to see people waving to me or honking their horns as the passed me. It was just a way of people to say to other people that they really do care about this.

I felt good when I was doing it, but when I stopped I felt very empty inside again.

What made me stop doing it was when a dog tried to jump on me. That made me spill hot wax on my hands and drop the candle. The owner of the dog (a woman) told me she had more candles at her place but I said no thanks.

One man used me standing on a corner as an opportunity to try to pick me up. His pickup line was "What are people holding these candles for." I really wanted to just call him an idiot or something. I explained what the candles are about. He said that he wasn't going to ask me if he could light his cigarette from it then. I let the conversation die and he left.

I hope the friends and family of everyone who reads this are safe and remain to be safe in the future.