It's about 3:00 AM now. I just got home. I went out to a club tonight. I think I really needed it.

I've been pretty secluded lately. Spending a lot of time alone and not talking to a lot of my friends. I don't really know why I've been like that but I get like that every once in a while. I think part of it is that I'm not working every day (I've been working on and off on a couple shoots) and it just makes me feel pretty useless. I have stuff I know I'm shooting coming up but I really hate not doing something. I'm no good at that.

I just wish I had a weekend off the shoot so I could go visit Leah in Chicago, but that won't happen for a while. She's coming up in March for about a week.

Actually the first week of March I have 2 people staying with me. The 2nd weekend of March I have another friend staying with me. Then Leah stays with me for a week. It should be a fun month. And waiting for Leah to come up will go by pretty quickly since I'll have visitors to entertain me.

Today I spent the day with Jen. We got some lunch, hung out at my place, went to her place, then went to the club. Her and I decided that at least once a month we're going to hang out for a day. It's been pretty fun doing that. She's a really great friend.

GOD DAMMIT! I just lost a whole lot of stuff I wrote. I'm restarting now!

Going to the club was fun. I'm starting to realize what exactly I do when I'm in a club. It basically takes me about 30 min to get used to the place and get comfortable. I walk around the place just looking around usually. Just paying attention to the lighting and stuff. Then after I do that for a while I'm finally comfortable enough to dance.

DAMMIT!!! I just had the system crash again. But this time during the crash I learned what I could have done so I wouldn't have lost the data. I did it this time so I didn't lose anything but now I realize I was dumb for losing it in the first place. Anyway...

Once I'm dancing I do it not so much because I want to or anything. But it's like a "why not" thing. So I do it and I sort of enjoy it. It's not something I really crave going out to do or anything but it's fun every once and a while. But I'm so shy that I blush and turn away anytime a girl looks at me. Like if some girl starts dancing with me I really don't know what to do. It's happened before and I hate it. I'm cool dancing with my girlfriend. I know that she knows I'm a crappy dancer but she doesn't care. It's okay. To some chick whose trying to dance with a guy at a club I'm retarded.

But that didn't happen tonight. I was pretty good at avoiding eye contact.

I ran into an old friend at the club. It's funny to run into old friends at places where it's too loud to talk. We said a few words to each other and moved on. When we shook hands he did one of those cool guy tricky handshakes. I know a few of them but I never get how you're supposed to know which one to do. Then it's just weird. I've wondered if people sometimes do that just to make people uncomfortable.

Then we (Jeff, Jen, DJ, Andy) headed over to my place. We played some Joust (great game!) and then watched Sealab 2021.

Sealab 2021 is one of the funniest things I have ever seen. The first time I saw it I was laughing so hard it was hard to breath. When I showed it to Josh I had to pause it because he was crying from laughing so much.

Leah loved it too. They both told me that it was better then they imagined (I talked it up a lot). So anyway, they seemed to like it. It's a pretty weird show. Most people will hate but if you don't hate it you'll love it.

You can download an episode here. I'm sure the download will be very slow.

Jeff, Andy, and Jen all live together. They were talking about their cleaning lady. If she finds something she considers objectionable she does something to it. Like she found a porno mag and moved it on top of a counter. She found condoms which she placed out onto a night stand. One of them had a picture of of two girls pretending they are about to lick each others faces. If you were to see the picture you would know it was just two friends being goofy at a restaurant. It's totally innocent. The picture happened to be on the top of a pile of pictures. She moved the picture into the middle of the pile. Nothing else was touched.

She also leaves Jesus pamphlets around. Especially when she finds something she doesn't like.

So Jeff decided to have fun with it. I have a really cheesy light up Jesus picture with flashing lights frame that Aaron got me. Jeff is barrowing it. He's going to make a little Jesus shrine in his room. He'll have that (with lights flashing) Jesus candles, bibles and other stuff. He's not sure where he'll go from there. Maybe mix in some Satan stuff somewhere in the room...the possibilities are endless.

Oh, a funny thing at the club. At the door the cover charge was 15 dollars. We just walked away when they told us that. Someone came out of the club to get us to come in. Andy got him to let us in for 5 bucks each promising that we'd all drink a lot. He agreed to that.

I barely drank tonight. Still the thought of drinking hard liquor is just disgusting to me. I had like 1 or 2 glasses of wine. It's this really sweet sparkling red wine from Italy that Leah got me into. It's awesome.

Andy got some old toys that he wanted back in the 80's but can afford now. He got them from ebay. It's two good sized remote controlled robots. It's called the Omnibot.

One is a smaller robot. It's about 2 feet high and it moves via remote control and it can play audio tapes or play your voice via walkie talkie. It came with an audio tape in it. It's teachings of the Dalai Lama. It was really freaky to hear spiritual advice coming from the robot. Especially with the eyes flashing as it speaks.

The other is bigger and it has an remote control arm as well and a robotic tray that rotates the cups. Tonight was the first night he had a chance to use them.

I found out from Jen today how much Andy hated Truffle. She said that back when Cristina and I were together if something happened to Cristina and I, Andy probably would have rather taken a baby or something then take care of Truffle. He's not a dog person at all, but he really hates Truffle.

Josh found a big old house in Hollywood that he wants to rent. I need to decide if I want to get in on it. I haven't had a roommate for a long time and I don't know how well I can handle it. I really like my privacy and there are times that I really just want to be left alone. My experience with living with friends is that it tends to not work out. I like where I live now and I just am not thinking that it's worth the risk. Too many things can go wrong.

Here are pictures of it.

It is a really cool old house. I like it a lot. That's what it has going for it. It's really big, it has great electrify, all wired for internet, and it has a sound proof studio upstairs.

I'm really good friends with all the guys who are in the house but that just makes me more nervous about it not working out. I don't want to lose any friends because of this. I know that I can be weird to live with.